Not my typical usual but my constant battle at the moment.

Know how a crazy man would strangle someone...that's how I have been feeling for the longest time. Strangled. Isolated. Trapped and unable to breath.
So many times I just need to take a breath in and let it out...I find my self randomly doing it because for just a few short seconds it feels like for the first time I am able to breath... I go so long with out doing so. Impossible, you say. I know. If I wasn't breathing then I wouldn't be living. Ah but you see that is where I prove my point.
I am not living. I walk around like a robot. No, you can not tell. I have been under disguise as a regular human being but on the end side ....I just feel like a tin man.
Ah yes I know partly this falls on my shoulders. In fact everything inside of me wants to take the blame.. Why.. I don't know. Maybe out of an act of love. One can not always tell.
Everyday I wake up, I dread it. And every night I dread falling asleep because when I do so a new day awake and the same suffocating feels come around.
I feel like I was meant to do so much more then what I do know, but I feel so trapped I don't know how to move and make them happen.
I have so many dreams...I know one day they will happen... My Heavenly Father has promised that much. But at this time in my life, they feel so far far away.

This is not typical stuff I write but the things I write are only things I feel lead to write. Only my Lord knows the reason for it even if I never find out. I try my very best to follow the Holy Spirits leading...I know I get encouraged so many times and I can only hope that I am doing the same. God Bless.

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true love, the only way to find it is by seeking God.

its been awhile since ive written anything.
i feel lead to write about something that i only share with a few. its a huge part of who i am but i dont like to talk about it with many.
i think mainly because i feel like it is not complete and there for i have nothing to show. 
this whole week has been a rough one for me.
when the sky is no longer lit up and heads are resting peacefully i am laying awake with a ache and longing so deep it feels my whole being. 
these sort of days come and go but it has stayed with me all week. some hours pass and its not as strong. other hours pass and all i want to do is to run, it is so strong i cant shake it but there seems to be nothing else i can do. 
for the many who dont know my story, well it goes a little something like this
about a year ago, last summer, God spoke so clearly into my life that He wanted me to wait...i have never been in a relationship of any kind. which is something most people can not say. oh i have had my fair share of feelings for a few. mostly only two ...the others i dont really count. they were more of fill ins. horrible i know. well it took me a few months to grasp the meaning of why He wanted me to wait. then came the season of leaves turing from green to red and yellow and slowly falling to the ground and never be seen again. 
oh how God healed my shattered and broken heart one very beautiful night. He gave me such a image that one can not ever forget. it was my heart... empty with spots. He then took it apart in half and cleaned it out, placed it back together and from the top begin to fill it with red paint...only the red wasnt paint it was blood, it was His blood. filling my heart. my whole heart was filled with His love and it showed. i was simply glowing. a endless smile played across my face. the best way to be is head of heels in love with Jesus. words can not express how simply breath taking and beautiful it is be in such a love like that. oh how the Lord spoke into my life during that time. i think because i was focused on Him fully, He finally had my undying attention, He started to speak into me all that He had been longing to do. He showed me, opened my heart to so many things. it was in that time that i gasped why He wanted me to wait. it then became my own desire and not just something i felt like i was suppose to do because God had asked me to do so.  He taught me of love and showed me His heart on a subject i dont think very many will give Him the time or day. if we were to give God the time...what do you think He would really have to say to us about dating and such. we treat it like its nothing, we use and abuse it everyday. perhaps that is why God has put it on my life to wait...to make a stand for Him and to one day help other people see His heart and to help them discover there own. i feel like God has such a beautiful story for me. i have been doing my very best in waiting for Him to bring me His prince. i have allowed Him to put the desires in my heart of the man He wants for me and the man i truly deserve. i am a princess of the King and i deserve nothing less then a prince of the King. i know he is out there some where... longing for me like i am for him. one day we will meet and i pray that every second from then on, he and i will bring glory to our Heavenly Father. one day he will take my hand and place a ring along with it and on that day we no longer be two but we will be three in one. he and i will become one in our King. 
out of one these sleepless nights of a heart for of longing from her other half i wrote something from the depths of my heart. and all though i thought i would never share this i feel lead to speak what is so heavy on my heart. i pray that some how God is using this. 


My hands lay here touchless,
naked and open, waiting to feel the warmth of love from another who's hand bares naked and touchless also.
Havent always had the right mind set
but my steps have been guided 
my heart longs to be in rhythm with the very breaths you take
lead me astray with always searching
my lips dry and cold 
waiting for feel the sweetness and warmth of ones breath up close, 
the touch of their own dry and cold lips touching together and bring to life of the once dull untouched
you see my darling, i have fallen short countless of times, but with that i know the same lingers around your shore line also
no matter our faults, we have a longing, a deep desire that goes miles like the endless sea for one another
no matter if our eyes have never set upon each other i know you are out there
i know this is real, in the very depths of my heart 
we live for a God who has birthed this in our very soul
and one day you and i shall meet. 
what a grand and beautiful day that will be.


not many people believe in true love any more, but that is because they have been seeking it in the wrong places. seek for it from God and you will find it. all those desires you stuff deep inside your heart, you think are not real. the dreams you push in the back of your head...they are very real. the only way they will happen is through Christ. seek Him and you will have a beautiful story. and one thing that makes it a beautiful story is the ugly parts. love every minute, the bad and the good. if you love only the good then you will never have your beautiful story. remember you do not deserve nor should you settle for anything less then what the great King above has for you. He loves you so much that He would personally create another human being who will fit perfectly beside you and know you second better then any one else. first being the creator. God Bless, i pray that you will seek after God and His heart. that you will not stand for anything less then your true love that was created just for you.

i had a thought. or maybe its God speaking to my heart again.

today while at work i had a conversation with a man about God and such. he is not to sure what he believes.

but he has questions. and it didn't take long after listing to him to speak that God had been opening doors for him all week and stirring questions inside of him. and what is stirring in my own heart at the moment is how we save the unsaved. for example lets say you and i and our fellow followers who are also reading go on a missions trip. our speaker calls us to the front and ask those who would like to ask Jesus Christ in to their hearts. tells them to step up front and allow us to pray with them.

is that honestly enough.

isnt there more we could be doing.

yes we may talk to them and try to explain for five, ten maybe fifthteen minutes and then pray for them. but what do they gain from that?they walk out the door with the thought i have Jesus in my heart now... and the next question that probably comes... so what comes next. and will probably go on with their life. making no change. not every one but most. what if we all started to pray for the unsaved every day. praying that God would stir questions inside of them, and place people in their life to help answer and understand better. when they have a better grasp, they will start to long to have Jesus in their heart. they will want to know more, grow more. instead of it being the right thing to do, it becomes personal and real. i feel like everything is being twisted. and while i have had the questions gnawing at me, trying to make sense, i finally see how to connect them. i think that God has made every single person their own unique self. no body completely alike. but what i couldn't connect was how we were still suppose to see and agree on the same thing [God, truth] but what finally connected was that we are suppose to take what God says to us and grasp it in a way we understand but not to run with it. so say you and i read something in the Bible... i take it in a way that i best understand it, and you do the same but we dont throw a whole bunch of turns and loops. we meet in the middle.i feel as if everyone today is searching for the right thing to do but what we need to be doing is seeking for the truth... and meeting in the middle.

the Church is God's Bride. and i feel like we are slowly starting to loose the meaning of Church. and im not trying to bash on any one but it is a pet peeve of mine and it bugs the mess out of me when a church allows you to pull out your phones and look up your notes or your Bible. im sorry if i step on any ones toes that might read this but have phones really taken over so much of our life that it is replacing the BIBLE. that we cant even take a piece of paper and pen and write down what God is speaking into us. if it is speaking into our hearts we should not have to have it on our phone that we keep with us 24/7. and even know mine does nothing but make calls and text i am guilty of this also. phones have become our safety net but what if the Bible became or safety net. what if we carried it around ..and when we felt awkward we can read it in stead of reading a text or looking up something. or if we feel unsafe...instead of fake calling why not pray and open up the Bible and let God comfort you. it makes me sick to think that technology has taken over like it has. it gives us reason to make the Church a comfortable place. to make things convenient for you. but God has not called us to be comfortable. He has called us to daily make sacrifices for Him. and if that means leaving your phone in the car for a few hours or not worrying about how the stage looks because we want to attract people or how the music has to be PERFECT. because really none of that should matter. what should attract people is the way we live. the way we present our selfs to one another. not if our stage looks cool or we use our iphones or if our music sounds legit. who cares what the stage looks like, just as long as i am getting fed, i will be much more attracted and interested. worry about speaking into some ones heart not what is pleasing to their eyes. eyes can deceive. the heart is what is most effected. we are people, living breathing human beings with a heart... i want to be touched and loved, i want to learn and grow, i want to be inspired and encouraged. those things you worry about to make it look attracted dont matter... they will never do those things for me. but you. your heart and your compassion to me will. lets start worrying about how we treat and effect other people instead of the looks. a person should be so after Gods heart, seeking Him every second that in our daily life we dont have to go to church to hear and learn how to save people. we should already know from our personal time spent with our King. 

Church should be the place where we can come together and know that there will always be darkness as long as satan is around but because of our Almighty King there is light and He has blessed us with each other to encourage and help grow and learn. to speak through each other. it should be a time that we can worship together and learn more about all the wonderful things that He has written for us in His amazing love letter and to come together and agree and pray. two are better then one He says. and a cord of three strands is not quickly broken.

understanding.

ever wonder what goes through some peoples heads when they do or say something.
because to you it doesn't make sense. or it is the most crazy or stupidest thing you have ever heard of.
but have you ever thought about how other people think the same about you.
there for we have no right to judge a person.
God made us all unique. we all do not think the same or see the same thing.
we are all wonderfully and beautifully made in our own special way. no maybe we don't always see each other that way, some of us think the others are weird or crazy. but we shouldn't. we should look at each other, the rich, the poor, the popular the unpopular all the same way. a beautiful creation from God.

it has been brought to my attention that most peoples view point is very jaded.
people have gotten their Independence and it is a good and bad thing. like i said before no one really thinks alike which is what kinda makes us simply us and beautiful but it does cause problem. because now we have over a million or how many ever people's minds and ideas being sent out to every one and it cause's a great deal of confusion. so like everything else in this world it has its ups and downs.
but as us for the ones that have a personal relationship with Christ i think we need to become more understanding to the ones who seem a bit off or even your fellow believers. you don't know where any one has been in life, what they have seen, what has been spoken into them. some people just simply haven't been told the truth or they have but it hasn't been proven to them that it is, they see it as the same thing that every one else is saying. why. because we don't demonstrate the true meaning of having a relationship with Christ.
if we were truly seeking after Him, we show so much more love and kindness, more understand and less judgment. but more then anything we show realness. yes we are human and we have flaws, we mess up but don't hide it...be honest about it but show your heart. show that you are striving to do better. show that as human you fail but show that with Christ you can prevail!

i have more to say about this subject but i cant get it all into the words i need. i will try to touch on this more later.

what the world needs to realize

Our God is not a hateful one. He is not a hurtful one.
many people wont believe in Him because they ask the questions and wonder why if He is so full of love that how He would allow them to hurt or to take away loved ones life. and i dont know the correct answer to His reasoning but i like to think that God will take a life for safety. a family friend had passed away a few years back and i remember my brother and mom discussing it on the way there. she was very young, close to the age i am now. and i remember them saying that they didnt understand why God would take such a young life away. but while saying that, they were trying to figure out why. and i remember one of them saying that maybe "He took her to keep her from further harm, that maybe something in her life that was coming up would cause her a lot of pain", so He brought her to heaven. a safe and beautiful place. and that has stayed with me every since. when i hear of a life being taking away, i often think that their future did not hold good, it would be filled with hurt and pain... maybe more then they were feeling or experiencing at the time they were breathing. and also that there purpose for here on this earth has been done.  which is hard to think because when you love that person you cant help your human mind and think but i needed that person. they brought life, love and joy to my own. but as some of us drift away, like after graduating from high school and going off to college and starting the rest of your life. most of those people you spent your life with wont be apart of your life after you walk in to that campus or where ever it is life takes you.
and i had the question filling me but what if they are not saved. but then an answer filled my being. God knows the future of our life, and like i said before how i think He will take us for safety comes into play with this also. no maybe they never got saved but He knew they never would find Him... because selfish people like my self and others are to afraid to speak the truth, to be honest and to show his love and grace. some may ask but if He knew they would never find Him then why would he bother creating them. because even know they may not have known Christ and never would, they still had a purpose. it could have been one word or even one smile or it could have been something huge. but regardless they had a purpose and they had someone in their life that was meant to speak into them but they never did. and i know the questions keep coming... its never ending. we cant ever wrap our head around it and we can never fully understand the answers we get to it. we can make more sense of it and try to get a better grip of understanding but we'll never fully understand. that is how He made it. with a purpose for it also. if we did know the answer, we would never need Him. would never look at Him the same... its in this confusion state of mind that keeps us in awe of Him and curious. if we weren't, we wouldnt ever wanna talk to Him or learn more from Him.
i know some people think that when a loved one or even them selfs, that when something bad happens to them, God doesnt care. He doesnt love. but oh how He does. a room full of darkness cant come to life untill the light shines. it has to be dark and then the light can come. that is so how it is with life. you wont learn anything unless you go through the "darkness" but after you have then you will see the "light".

Its not just about you, Its about You and I.

I think the problem today is that people's mind set is "ME". 
They think they have to do everything for them selves. They have to only worry about them. It has provided such a selfish world. With selfishness comes along hurt. Its true. When you think of only you, it hurts everyone around you. Why is that. Maybe because we were made for each other. Not for us alone but for each other. ...If you think about it... it makes sense. If we were meant to be just us alone God would have never created Eve, He would have just made Adam. 
-"The Lord God said, 'It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a  helper suitable for him.'"- Genesis 1:18

"So the Lord God caused the man to fall into a deep sleep; and while he was sleeping, He tooK one of the man's ribs and closed up the place with flesh. Then the Lord God made a woman from the rib He had taken out of the man, and He brought her to the man. The man said, this is now bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh; she shall be called woman, for she was taken out of man."- Genesis 1:21-23 
So you see God could have just created adam and no eve... then where would we be...... 
which is exactly why He created another human being. no longer just one by him self but accompanied by another to help, support and love. 
It was meant for us to worry and love about another and not our selfs. Some where along the way though it all the sudden became "I" was more important then "YOU". Which started so many hurtful actions. Accusing, backstabbing, lying, cheating, oh how the list goes on. 
stop- thinking only about you, and think about "me" -the people beside you, the people around you, your loved ones, the ones who dont look like you or do look like you. worry about there needs and your needs will be taken care of. 
-"So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you..." Matthew 7:12. 
because i know you feel alone, unloved, and unwanted. but that is only because you have and everyone else has shown the same to others. once you start to show them they are cared for, you will be shown the same. take care of others and you will be taken care of. if we were meant to take care of it on our own we would have no need for other people in the world. it simply just wouldnt work. Go on, go love everyone around you, go listen and give a helping hand, be understand, and be trustworthy, be kind and gentle, show the world you have a heart and your not a grinch. 

so reach out and

others will reach out to you.

God's Hands.

have you ever thought about Gods hands.               
He holds the whole world in the palms of His hands. His hands are so big that the earth is tiny inside of them. which says to me, our God is a big God. if His hands are big, then imagine how big He is.
we are just a speck compared to things He has crafted but in His eyes we are the greatest and biggest thing He has ever made. 
have you ever thought about how much detail there is in a human. there is not just hands, arms, legs, feet, mouth, eyes, etc. no there is beyond so much more.  He didn't just put us together, He didn't just make us and say let there be humans. - So God created man in his own image, 
       in the image of God he created him; 
       male and female he created them. Genesis 1:27-
 i get this image of Him sitting down at a table and a light, late into the night looking over the "blueprints". pencil and eraser working hard, making sure everything is perfect, right, and in place. then with His big beautiful hands he begins to put His craftsmen to work, He begins to mold, shape,curves,tightens, and sharpens the most beautiful masterpiece and then to finish it off He begins to paint. the color of skin, the lips, the eyes, the hair. 
we have just now become a piece work from the hands that create such art.   
how or why any one would ever want to put more "art work" on their hand crafted, painted self, is beyond my understanding. your body is a not a piece of paper for you to draw on. you are already a master piece so why put a painting (tattoo) on you, why pierce your self and poke holes through something God has taken His precious time on. do you think God is not a busy man? He is the King of this universe and He takes care of every single little and big thing beyond imaginable. so the fact that He thinks you are and i are worth while His time, just says how highly He thinks of us. of how much He loves us. to me that is more love then i can comprehend. which motivates me to want to everything in my power to take care, and to respect Gods temple that he ever so crafted and made a rare masterpiece. 
by doing so, its not just by putting ink or holes its also by the things we put inside of us, the way we take care of the of the organs and the tiny many things inside of us, the muscles and the heart.. and the way we treat our body physically in a sexual manner. 

“All things are lawful for me,” but I will not be enslaved by anything. “Food is meant for the stomach and the stomach for food”—and God will destroy both one and the other. The body is not meant for sexual immorality, but for the Lord, and the Lord for the body. And God raised the Lord and will also raise us up by his power. Do you not know that your bodies are members of Christ? Shall I then take the members of Christ and make them members of a prostitute? Never! Or do you not know that he who is joined to a prostitute becomes one body with her? For, as it is written, “The two will become one flesh.” But he who is joined to the Lord becomes one spirit with him. Flee from sexual immorality. Every other sin a person commits is outside the body, but the sexually immoral person sins against his own body. Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body.

—1 Corinthians 6:9-20 
to give your self to someone who is not the person God has CREATED for YOU, the someone who has been crafted to fit you perfectly, is such a slap to Gods face. the way you are made is for a reason.
Gods hands who have created and painted the very things you see when you step out your front door, or the things you see while driving, and so much more are the same hands that have created you. and inside them we are so small but to Him we are so big, with an even bigger heart... no matter the pain and hurt and junk that might be in there, we all have a heart and its bigger then life its self. 
I'm so thankful for Gods hands. they do so much. they pick you up when you need to be. when you are weak they give you strength. when you are falling they catch you. they hold your hand when you are alone. they guide you when you are lost. they heal you when you are sick and broken. they comfort you when you are in pain. they are open wide when you need to grave a hold of something. they are reaching out and they are full of love. they are my everlasting Kings hands. I pray that i will have helping hands like His. 

Imagination.

Have you ever thought about how God and imagination connect. 

it hit me that the best time i can connect with God is when i use my imagination. when i imagine things. and maybe everyone is different in this. but i know for me... using an image... painting a picture in my head ... helps me to understand and connect closer with God. 

and honstly God him self has a very big imagination.

it amazes me with the things He creates and paints for us. like the sky at a sunset, sunrise, cloudy day. people, nature, and just so many more things. God paints, He is an artist and i think we all have an artist side in us. we were all created by the same man who has that incredible imagination and artistic ways. He didnt make us all the same, which is why some are more talented in art and music and anything else. 

everything we do is an art, it calls for some type of imagination. some type of using your head and coming up with the right answer, the right thought. 

for some reason i am fascinated by imagination at the moment. i cant really stop thinking about it.

Beauty

Beauty is like a small simple white pearl. 
God created us into beauty. 

the white represents purity. purity is so rare to find in a world like todays. kind of like a pearl is rare to find. its so easy to get caught up in thinking and comparing our selfs to the way we should look and that starts a hunger in us of feelings, of insecurity which can strike the ''lustful" feeling....and some who think that is what will make us feel beauty. sexuality is not the answer to beauty.  beauty is pure. beauty is the simple things God creates. He created us and our bodys are a part of us and he has made all of us uniquely and breath taking in our own way. our bodys are a temple of God, and we should take care of them. it doesnt matter if our clothes look like everyone elses. it doesnt matter if our nose is bigger then some or our body is made differently. 1 Samuel 16:7 says - "The Lord does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart."  so rejoice in the way the Lord has made you. because you are beautiful. and when you see the way He see's you... nothing else matters. He didnt call us to all be the same. if He did then we would all already look alike. rejoice and be glad in the way the Lord has created you. YOU ARE a masterpiece. look at anything the Lord has made...does it not have any flaw? no. that is how He see's us. flawless. "You are altogether beautiful, my darling, And there is no blemish in you." -Songs of Songs 4:7

every day i think we take God's breath away. but theres one thing....He isnt asking us to wear the latest fasion... look this way or that way. but He is asking us to take care of our selfs. i've often asked my self...where do you draw the line. i think its fine to dress up and i know for me... wearing makeup just gives me that extra secureness. i already know im beautiful from God and its not even so much for other people that i wear it but its more for me. to Gods eyes i dont need it...but i know He understands. but just as long as i dont over do it. the line that needs to be drawn is that its okay to add a little bit of this and that but dont add all it. dont over do it. but the main thing is. take care of your self. eat healthy. take care of your body. remember it is Gods temple. dont push your self to saying i have to be skinny and even some i like my "jiggly parts" be the best you can by taking care of your body and be the body God made you to be.

"3Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. 4Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight. 5For this is the way the holy women of the past who put their hope in God used to make themselves beautiful. " -1Peter 3:3-5

Proverbs 31:30 - "Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting: but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.

so. simple represents that we do not have to be "blingy, and decked out" to be beautiful. we are simply beautiful the way we already are. in a world like to day these things kind of seem simple compared to the what we think we need to be beauty. gentle, a quiet spirit, devoted women of God. intimacy is a big part of what makes a women. "Intimacy connotes familiarity and closeness. it involves our deepest nature. and it is marked by a warm friendship. develop through long association. in order for us to become intimate with another, we must find in him a true confidant- one in whom we can safety confide our secrets." -cynthia heald.

i think so many women today are afraid of being intimate. we live in a world where women feel less if they dont do what or better then the men do. no. intimacy is something God created and  it is a nature thing for women to be that way but only to many are fighting it. but that is what makes you a woman. be proud to be a intimate woman. that is how God created you and you are His. you are beauty. 

small represents us. we feel small and sometimes helpless. but that is obviously apart of who God made us. small simple white pearl.
we are a pearl of God. and he adores us and loves us so much that i almost find it hard to breath at times. 
no matter where we have been, what we have done, or what we'll do. He will always see us and adores us. 

I am a daughter of the King and i see my self through his eyes. i pray that every girl, young lady, and women see's them selfs the same way. if you dont... let Him show you what real beauty and love is. God bless. 

The way you live now Will effect you in the future.

while I was in new Orleans I saw a lot of crazy "messed" up people. a lot of them ...their life has just become nothing. and this started some thinking.

there was this one guy who I haven’t been able to get out of my head. I was at a red light and I looked out the window and I saw a guy sitting there on the steps. his eyes were big and his face kept showing different emotion. his lips would make a smile and then kinda go in and then go out and just back in forth. as I'm watching him I started thinking ...he use to be normal... he use to be just like me and my friends. he probably went to high school... could have a been a popular guy or could have been a nerd. well known or not hardly noticed. or maybe he was, but what he was noticed for, wasn’t good. he also could have been very involved in a church and loved god deeply. all kinds of possibility's.
and I started thinking how he got from there to where he was now.
crazy to think but when he was younger...he had no idea one day in new Orleans he would be sitting on a step with his face all messed up and I'm sure hungry and no place to sleep....no friends or family.
how did he get there.
he got there because of two things. one: him self.
the choices we make today effect us ...in the future. what we do now will some day come back to us. it will some how have an effect on us down the road. sometimes it will be good and sometimes it will be bad. ....
there was something in his life that lead him to that. could have been small, could have been big. you just never know but that is why its so important to be careful with how we live our life now. how we live it every day. one word, one action will be apart of us forever. it will carry on into life.



second: You. (people he knew)
how we treat people effect other peoples life’s. just like we effect our own we effect others.
some one could have stopped or just never even loved him...or maybe they did in their hearts but they didn’t show it.
they didn’t treat him right. they said they were his friend but then something happened...something or someone came up.



we treat each other like we don’t matter. we call each other our best friend and show that we care about them when we feel like it and don’t think about our self. but then we get into selfish mode and forget everyone else. then a fight, problems, drama, hurt happen. and because of that...it will carry on in our life and effect us.


there use to be a time when people knew the real meaning of what family meant or friendship, relationships, love, marriage, sex, respect, honesty, government, follower of Christ, ...and the list goes on. we have lost a hold of the real meaning of anything.



people say this is a good world will live in. they say they love life.
I can personally not say the same. yes god has made so many beyond breathtaking things and he has blessed us with so much. by him things are good, by him I love the life he has given in me. but as for the world and the way people live it, I can not say the same.
yes maybe there has always been bad and evil. and yeah there always will be. but it doesn’t have to consume us.


this world (people) are drowning because we have simply STOPPED. we have become lazy and all we do is sit there and complain. we put no effort into anything. we say we care. we say we love. but do our actions show otherwise? ....more and likely the answer is yes it does, because look at this world.
right now...this very second someone has committed suicide because the people around them didn’t think about them but only thought about them self.



god will take care of you. if you will take care of each other he will take care of your needs. and I mean honestly...if he is taking care of you...don’t you think life would go so much better?



people just don’t get it. they don’t get what it means to love and be loved. they don’t get what it means to be a family or a friend. and because of that lives are being destroyed. families and relationships are lost. everyone is alone and on their own. no one is together. and if we are not together then we can not grow. if we can not grow then... we can not live.



you say you live your life for Christ... but by just posting a verse or talking about it with friends or in church... its not enough. you wanna change the world then get unstuck of your self and start seeking god. ask him to show you how to be a real friend. how to love. how to change. ask him to show you what breaks his heart. and what you can do for him. love him and let him love you and love for others will be a natural thing.



if we would start being real. start being in god and actually truly obeying him...
this world would not be the mess it is today. if we started respecting each other, lives would never be the same but only this time its for the better.